"The Big Goodbye..." - March 5th...

Saying goodbye is never easy. Never has been...never will be. But it's a necessary part of life, I guess.

treyz.diaryland.com has been my home for quite some time now, so it'll be strange to call somewhere else home. But the times, they are a-changing....and I fear that I'm changing along with them. Quite scary actually, seeing as I have a distinctly-paranoid fear of change and 'new' things. And I'm not exactly sure if the 'change' is a good thing or not. I hate change so much that I don't even want to think about it.


So...where is this new 'home'? I can't say. Well, I can...I'm just choosing not to for the time being. It's right here on diaryland, so it's not like I've completely jumped ship and abandoned diaryland altogether. Diaryland's been too good for me, so I wouldn't think of going to another online diary site. It's just...I need a place where I can be 'me', without having to worry about the repercussions of any actions I might take or things I might say. Or worst of all, where I might actually regret the things I say and do. I'm my own worst critic, so that is most often the case.

I'm not completely averse to giving out the link to my new diary; you all who read this are my friends and are an integral part of who and what I am. So if you ask, I will most probably provide you with the necessary information. The only catch being that I'll be severing most of my old methods of communication (IMs and email addresses) for the next week or so. So you can email me or leave a message in my guestbook asking for the new link, but chances are I won't see it right off the bat. Between course work and my current mood swing (**mumble/grumble roommate's stupid dog grumble/mumble**), I'll be away from the comp. for quite a long while and won't get to respond in a timely manner.


So...I guess the 'think big' question is, is this a permanent thing? Will I stay away from this diary for good? Who's to say. Maybe this is just part of some 'phase' I'm going through and, once it's run it's course, I'll return here and resume posting. However, it could be a permanent change, in which case this account will go inactive in a good 6-months (or whenever it is that Andrew takes away accounts that haven't been updated). Only time will tell...if it ever will.


Well, there's not really much else to say, aside from 'goodbye'.



Treyz


"Falling from a star,
I've never been so far away from home.
I've left it all behind,
And so now I find that I am on my own.